second time?

could it be the second time again....
i thought i have finally got over....
the past years....
i don't wanna been through again...

I am so afraid...
but i have no one to tell...
it's not that no one will listen to me...
but.... none knows how I feel truely...

I really really don't wanna go over again...
i don't know how much i can handle it this time...

I am really so afraid....
afraid to lose all again....
found that i become as fragile as before again...
little thing could make me think much...
everthing could make me cry...
don't like how the way i am...
but....i don't know what else i could do...